Wednesday, October 21, 2009
我想领你走开，到很远很远的地方去。真的要离开这片平原了，开始跋涉——看到那一溜黛色山影了吧？要向南，一直向南。我会把糙食留给自己，把剩下的一点精粮交给你。旅途太长了，你要接着走。到了那一天，我倒下了，你将继续往前，并且想念着我。这世界上有几个人真正配得上怀念？
我相信当初有神灵轻轻地推了一下，我们才抬起了眼睛。淳朴的像平原上的一株艾草，清香久远。不认得艾草的人永远也不认识原野，觉悟不到土地的存在。
我跟随你像跟随真理。我的忠诚经受了考验。一个当代的人，生活在水泥金刚的世界里，经一切丑恶杂念、污烟垢气所染，怎样才算经过了洗礼？我不知道，但我算是这其中之一。我面对这原野，没有茫然失措。很亲切，很本色，我们相互体贴。你哺育我，你不朽的青春光芒四射。
由于那个不幸的童年和少年时期，我变得沉默寡言。可是你打开了我心的闸门。我不会哭泣。当面对同一个场景，众人嚎啕之时，我只是木然。但面对你的温厚和无私，我却难以忍住。脸上没有滴落，心中泪如涌泉。你的手挽住了我，我们向前走去，直到溶解在天际。那一片橘红色的云朵不是被太阳点燃的，而是一个奇怪的预兆。你哺育着我。世上再也没有比你更善良的人了。
你的手挽住我。诅咒和颂赞轻得像一片鸿毛。去哪里？向南，一直向南。
7:37 PM bored xb
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
林场枫树旁的小路还有吗？那一地红火的枫叶，那一对对身影。
那时的人纯洁又含蓄，远不像现在这样泼辣得野蛮。他们先是注视，默默地，怦怦跳动的心脏轰击了胸前的甲片好几个月，好几年，才逐渐敢于交给对方一幅绣花手帕。
日暮下垂，夕阳把秋后的树林照得一片金黄，一种丰收温馨的画面。下班了，姑娘抱着猫，小伙牵着狗。太阳光把脸抹红了，再有自家动物相伴，这才有勇气走到一个寂静的地方去。他们先说借书的事。猫在狗的盯视下从姑娘的怀中逃开，狗也跑了。“今年河里的鱼真多啊。”男的说。女的抬头瞥一眼，“天说黑就黑了。”……
这样的约会不知多少次了，终于有一天他们在枫树下轻轻地拥抱了。他们周身抖动，眼含热泪。其中一个说:“谁比你好才怪了。”另一个拭干眼角的泪，掩不住通红的脸，腼腆地说：“你最好最好——啊？”
林子里的歌声起起落落。那是在远处，另一些欢乐的人发出的。幸福有个浓度。每个人都会在某个时候获得它。但幸福有个浓度。他们都想永远抓住幸福，但幸福却像玻璃，越想紧握却越得放手。
他识不了太多的字，可是他一连多少天琢磨写一首诗给她。写成了，不好，又重写。她为他织毛衣，织成了又拆了，天天织，一直织到秋末。
6:40 PM bored xb
Monday, October 19, 2009
你还记得那个夏天，温暖的光线
回忆中的画面，太多的思念
白天太短，要走的路太长
晚上太黑，要看的电影太多
辣椒和甜面酱在一起是种美妙的搭配
夏天后的冬天，寒冷的极限
记忆中的音乐，已经弹不出同一种心切
思念太多，相见太少
孤单太多，拥抱太少
辣椒酱、甜面酱，本来就有不同的味道
她仍然是他的一切
只是多了一个秋天
12:40 AM bored xb
Friday, October 16, 2009
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
-.-
9:27 PM bored xb
today is a day to behold. it marks the dawn of communism and the end of hell.
had a mini-celebration at jianyi's house today. dont know what was i doing at the supposed "snsd party", which the snsd bros craved for a long long time. my first time playing the xbox - quite a good experience but i didnt know man utd was so nooooob!
what now? movies? books?
things are cramming up my mind. hate myself for not writing those post-eoy wishes down cause now everything's jumbled up. damn. but one thing for sure im gonna smash this fucking ancient com i used since sec one till now - yes its a goddam pathetic piece of junk with 260ram.
several things in my mind now.
1) dec huixun
2) hot body
3) xdx outing!!! (jg i hope you're reading this)
4) new books
5) work? not quite possible
jiayou to those taking o's! Free chem tuition if interested
12:00 AM bored xb
Sunday, September 20, 2009
hello im posting again.
i think nobody knows, but this blog is secretively alive! *temporarily*
maybe only 1 person does. and to that person, i'll accept you soon enough coz i only have 49 right now :(
just back from bball, my underwear was 99% wet, only the "tip of the iceberg" part was dry.
looking ahead the long weekend, i though i had time, but it seemed like i was wrong - arrgh 1 more day!! and today's counting the 10th last day to my officially first paper. omfg-.-
tonight's gonna be a long long night. no more man utd matches, no more monopoly on phone, just math, that shall be it. im gonna lock myself up in my room to do math and nothing else. not even going out for toilet break, coz im gonna jizz in my pants.
goodluck to me
6:16 PM bored xb
Saturday, September 19, 2009
im back:)
just for now..
cause i still wanna study and be a fucked up mugger :)
you know wad? i really missed you!
everytime i felt like coming back here, i told myself i'd keep my 4wk promise. now's alr halfway through, and im much more prepared for everything! i believe i can do miracles. im amazing :D
its officially less than 2 wks to the final battle. it might be a kiddy thing for some, eg kester; but its pain in an ass for all, eg YUMING!, who still refuses to wake up-.-; i hope my ass's not gonna hurt, i still wanna go gym and bball and write my first book aft e exams, and go on a holiday + china trip, maybe work and make more friends aft i come back. yeah sounds kinda boring, i know, but you also know tt im a boring person, dont you?
i've learnt not to take certain things too hard, esp those tt cannot be control by myself - which spells alot of things; grown up a little more, tts good & keep it up. just realised there's alot of ppl around me, ppl who are willing to lend a helping hand, and perhaps make a difference in others.
yawnzz....
it's 1.11 now, ohya i need 2 more friend requests for fb to hav instantaneously more 50 friends! what resilience!
and. my bro's gonna screw his o lvls. im tired of worrying for him, when i had more to worry for myself. i will not jump at him anymore when he sleeps the whole day and sms the whole night. he'll just die and fuck and rot at some ite and continue smsing. yes he will.
(im amazing?)
12:58 AM bored xb
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
erms.
dont know if im ready for this but i'll be back 4 weeks later.
i'll miss ya~
9:15 PM bored xb
Thursday, August 13, 2009
HELLO!
dint sleep for e night. but finished 1 phys ppt and 1 brochure:)
phys ACE cleared very happy :):)
but i told myself tt i'll get the 2 journals done ytd! nvm shall complete it by this week and throw at corr. hmm not really tired, maybe missing grandpa too much. hope he read the letter i hid in his luggage.
I've never been
The one to raise my hand
That was not me
And now that's who I am
Because of you
I am standing tall
I guess I’ve learned
To question is to grow,
That you still have faith,
Is all I need to know,
I’ve learned to love,
Myself in spite of me,
And I’ve learned to
Walk on the road I believe.
This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
i really hope i do..
lol another 1hr+ before dad comes in to wake me up.
wad shall i do hmm..
4:03 AM bored xb
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
明天的此时，爷爷应该已经到家了，家里人应该是坐在客厅里，听爷爷说在新的这段日子，看爷爷慢慢地亮宝。老杨，别走～
刚吃完了最后的晚餐，在电梯里不知为何按纳不住心中的伤感，哭了。
但还好爷爷没看见，否则一定会骂我。
爷爷现在的每一个动作，我都默默的为他记着:
最后一次开门，最后一次开鞋柜，最后一次坐在沙发前看电视。
也最后一次躺在床上，最后一次的冷气，他在新的最后一个晚上。
他今晚睡得着吗？
睡不着那么他会想些什么？
那么换成我，我又会想什么？
。。。
爷爷，有很多心里话一直憋在心里，但做不出成绩来，说什么都是废话。
我现在不说。
年底我们回去了，我慢慢给您讲！
好了，我现在就去陪您看电视了。
这也是我的最后一个晚上！
8:39 PM bored xb
